Nightqueen *

~LIZBETH RYMLAND~ Liz Blog * About * What's New * Lost Expedition * Primordial Parks * Rhythmic Arts * Demetrauma/Persephrenia * Strange Conditions * Alchemical Circus * Nightqueen * Lillith * Monstrosity * Illumines * Temple of Yes * Vanquished * Phenomenology * Poetry-Science * Harm Reduction *

Nightqueen and Numbers

NIGHTQUEEN OF THE NAZCA PLAIN

The other night I awakened as hovercraft, circling some kind of dusty gem-encrusted queen sleeping upright on a night throne on the Nazca Plain.  She burned gold and crimson under my firefly hovercraft lights, though she was covered with dust, beautiful, nodding.  Circling her head coming closer I heard her mumbling.

“Examining the spectrum of monstrification we can rapidly recognize that monstrification extrudes at the source point of circulation blunting.  If disease is born from an inhibition of soul-life, soul-life circulation is the key to reanimation across the numb-zones of deadification and separation blunting.  Sorry things have deadened, numbness expands like the flabby of banality in every direction.  Coyotes will be released to unplug fixity.  First the gold elevators of the Trump Tower open to reveal first one giant Indian clown, a Koshari.  He is mammoth brown—broad jawed with raggedy clothes but this one’s raggedy is electrified.  He wears a polka-dotted hat with a broad brim and pom-poms hanging from it.  He stands in the gold open elevator of the Trump Tower as the first sign of the others to come down one after another like a slurry of blessings that open the elevators to infiltrate the city.  This heyokeh secretly carries in his briefcase a medicine bundle with spangled gak to infect with blessing the atrocities in every dead man’s quarter.  Corporate showrooms, sexslave camps, bad masons, boardrooms and bedrooms of each and every character that Christ would spit from his mouth for being neither hot nor cold.  The polka dot Heyokeh exits the elevator, walks behind a screen where he is simultaneously cloaked in a suit carrying a suitcase through the city flled and leaking with spangles as holy as the saliva and bodily fluids exchanged between Christ’s and Magdalene’s.  Sopping wet from Christ sperm and Magdalene’s blessed foam, Entrails everywhere are enlivened and golden, heightened elongate till dancing.  Take your dreary dead man’s cloak and silkenwebbery you are covered with greasy plaid stuff and bless it with  the gak from the polka-dotted contrary’s spotted apocraphal bible.  Deadification occurs when the rapid rise of wonder and awe and love in one’s tissue is met with sudden denial or shock or battery and somehow the denied one is distracted and doesn’t meet this rupture with full-blown howling or more simply, unlike the traumatized animal who has just shammed dead and rises to shake the trauma off the spine, we sometimes forget after springing to our feet to shake the trauma off the spine.

Hey! Yer tailbone is stuck in the inverted position! Stick a finger in and yank the tailbone down!  Take the spangles from the contrary’s briefcase and sup of it from your fingertips.  It lives in you he/she lives everywhere!  In fact, examining the broad spectrum of monstrification we can rapidly recognize that monstrification extrudes at the source point of circulation blunting and that soul life circulation across fixed borders of ancestral and familial separation and forgetting is the key to reanimation across the numbzones.”

What's New with My Subject?

 

Numbers

 

6. SAD SONG OF THISTLEHEAD

Coming down the road
With a head full of thistle
Trying to clear the head of thistle
Keep my eye on the saints on the bridge
And I'm running back and forth between God's house
And the Devil's hut
And I'm trying to run all ways
With my eye on God's eye
But my head's full of thistle
And my hands are caught in the haywain
My heart yearns for a place where I can work hard
And feel holy.

9. SONG OF A FAITH HEALER

It don't really matter if your blonde hair is ragged
And your nails and teeth are jagged
And the stuff in your nose is sticking
And your bleached-by-the-sun cowboy shirt
Has been worn in heat and snow for ten months running
I will give your body my best attention
There are dead protein deposits
Replacing the buzz of your living tissue
Your innards a thicket
Of hair and fingernails
Scarecrow,
It don't serve you to avert my eyes
It don't serve to push you away
With the love of my fingers
I will quicken
I will moisten
I will lick to gleaming
I will touch to wakening
To lightning
To quaking.

17. EXCLAMATION SENT INTO THE BLACKENING

There is a bombardment of sound
Rachitic wayfarers stop to gaze and finger these barbarous lights
Fractious brothers. Fractious sisters
Wrestle on the roofledge
Trigger signals mixed with lanky legged light
Slow loping elongation to wavering invisible
This long bend adorned with racy light
This long bend sister, touch the trigger
This trigger, bring down the frantic mistral men
Slather-tongued wind men come
And river men meet with firemen on this river upside
To the fighting on the rooftop, rachitic sisters
Friction in the lampblack
Raucous rain on stone along the ledge
Raucous milky minstrels along the lanner ledge
Friction is as friction does along the murky mire
Disappearance is as disappearance does deep
Enough drop into the inky slinky field
That field with that bombardment of sound
That razor bearing hoodwink along the stinky mire
Those temblors hardly lightningarrested
These bombardments of loosely linked
Wrestlers bring down points of friction
Like hobnob across the whiny field
Like hobnob harijan on the untouchable rollercoaster
Like hobnob freakshow on the Ferris wheel
Like hobnob mandarins blooding mandolins
Dusted roadbed, dusted longitude, lapping minstrels
Beady-eyed roadmen through the piercing dark cornfield
That piercing dark cornfield torments the wayfarer
Those sweet hiccups on the slathered eelback
Hiccups along that whole circular range, the circular range entire
It's fireball season on the prairie amusement park
It's fireball raceway
All salamanders slink away
It's prairie amusement park
Hard slinky dark with lightning season
It's muscled up real murky on the solid lake.
It's pointed dark and Mr. Nods-About-Town
A fury of mudmen fights spark fire friction on the Ferris wheel
Beleaguered black mare spun lightstruck on the accelerator track.


20. SONG OF THE CELESTIAL STAG

Beautiful hunchback
Moppy blonde hair
Creature-from-the-forest eyes
Inquisitive almost avian nose
A smile that lights the room.
The fabric of our coming together
Thick with miraculous similars.

Upon arrival at your house I discovered that your harvest,
A terrarium of psychedelic insects,
Matched the gift that I brought for you,
The blood-red egg of a ptarmigan filled with 400 red harvester ants that
help the intoxicant to acquire life-long spirit helpers.
I had not known that you were a cultivator of the insects that I was
studying
Nor that we were neophytes of the same arcane order.
You had printed formal invitations for that day to the Annual Ball Lightning
with Rays
To take place in Alba, theWhite City.
I was the only one who received the invitation and
The only guest to respond, on my birthday, my solar return.

In your cavernous home near Chupadero
I discovered you were a collector
Of Jumbo the elephant and whale bones
Prophetic jawbones of antelope kings
Luminous bones of saintly lepers, new world dwarfs
and blond eskimos

In your barn out back
You were recreating Mexico's Zone of Silence
Rimmed by rocking stones
Lines of Pits
Cyclopean Mounds
A radar ring and puzzling features of the broken spectre
The surrounding atmosphere
Flashed with black auroras, anamorphic halos, an infrared banded sky
Luminous phenomena in ice and water.

There were suspended projections of people hit by meteors
Auroral pillars
Pogonips and other ice fogs
Prodigious falls of web-like materials
And in the opening hollow in the dark of the hallway
A little film of unborn twins
Seen fighting through the fluroscope

Facing each other in strait backed chairs; we spoke for hours in awe of our
strange twin-mindedness…

Diseases from outer space
The evolutionary function of virus
Whistling for wind songs used by shamans to steer the interdimensional
transport of ayahuasca initiates
We remembered friends from other dimensions:
The man who tips his stove pipe hat
to reveal
a little saucer of living liquid
in the cave of his crown.
You gave me a comic book from the jungle of Ecuador
A classic Datura journey that mirrored my own journey with Brugmansea
The impossible summons of the plant’s phantom
who comes cloaked in the likeness of the shaman,
the initiate, splayed on the medicine mat,
suffers humbling and futile attempts to rise to the call.
**
We agreed to take a daytrip together
To search for the visionary plant "Desmanthus Illinoiensis"
That hides dimethyltryptamine in its root bark.
As the week passed we each became expert in tracking this Desmanthus plant,
Discovering its climatological  preferences,
Its optimum conditions for growth,
Places historically  untrodden by cows.

Upon meeting you in your garden
We simultaneously doffed our sunglasses
To greet each other unmasked.
The magical nature of our relationship coming clear,
Alchemical  brother and sister,
Sol y Luna,
Invested with powers of attraction as well as the repulsive magnetism of
aversion
The double light of the moon
Feminine,
And inside
A masculine one which is hidden as a fire.

We headed out  in my car to search for Desmanthus Illinoiensis.
Desmanthus from the genus Mimosa also known as "sensitive plant",
Which displays its shyness
By recoiling its tiny fernlike leaves when touched.

We didn't find Desmanthus that day,
We found a desert ghost town called "Waldo"
And a wetland which was already familiar to me.
We wandered through the wetlands beneath the abandoned bridges of Waldo
Enormous otherworldly spiders in webs that neither of us had ever seen in
New Mexico
This impressed you.
That I would be familiar with this remote zone of mystery.
We had a picnic in the sun.
You taught me how to bathe my tonsils in the sunlight.
We talked of criminality,
Fugue states and disappearing cows,
The mystery of the bovine,
Their propensity and capacity for drastic verticality up the steepest of
hillsides
We had always considered this ironic and contrary to their hoofed aspect.

Then four days of fasting before seeing you again.
Bearheart Williams had advised me to dedicate my fasting...
This time it was not consciously dedicated
Was thereby threaded by an unexpressed desire for physical communion with
you.
On the fourth day of the fast I visited with you again.
Upon hearing of my fasting you offered me a massage...
An awkward  series of maneuvers which began in straight-backed chairs,
Taking turns rubbing each other's shoulders and heads
Like Jehovah's Witnesses on their postnuptial night.
Then, you,
Being far more experienced than that,
Offered another configuration...
And with that you began to arrange and decorate this bed on the floor with
as much ceremony and concentration as you bring to otherworldly studies
On the second occasion of love,
the flow was interrupted because you began to go a little crazy with passion
and lost mental control
in an inner encounter with beauty
that caused you to sweat
to express a level of chaos that frightened you.
I remember that I had put my lips to your forehead and thereby disappeared
into bliss.
You interrupted the loveact as it was beginning, with remorse and compassion
You said, you could see me in my wedding bed,
in preparation for someone else,
perhaps a husband and a child,
I would soon be finding the one that I was intended for,
I had thought it was for you.
You said you had a backlog of unprocessed pain and
an ancestry speckled with meanness
That you couldn't rightfully embark on a relationship,
were in no way interested in such a thing.
Your days devoted to maintaining sanity
By a series of investigative rituals
Bioacoustical investigations detailing the soundscape
Of Musical valleys
Aerial echos
Turtles stomping for worms
The shrill hum of rocks before a lightning strike
These practices were
Time consuming
Necessary to survival
The pastimes of other humans
lay outside your spectrum of capacity.
As you spoke about the impossibility of communion
I felt myself falling hopelessly
Awakening suddenly to the possibility that I was in for a significant pain
level
Unbinding, time consuming.
You were extremely sorry and profusely apologetic
I was experiencing
A thoracic bursting and breaking so forceful
That speech became impossible
For the concentration required to hold body and soul together.
Ghastly Venus-Pluto conjunction,
Love strikes like a hammer
In regions of sensation
That have never seen the light of day...
Once the hidden regions are burst open
The capacity for light to fill those cavernous hollows leads one closer to
the divine
And the capacity for love coming from everywhere, all creatures.

Into the night I went
to find a Brazilian band playing
in a desert bar
and the sympathy of strangers who sat close by.

We grew a friendship then
Through a series of platonic visits…
Working to bind,
Simultaneously,
Careful to unfasten
A seemingly endless array of secret tendrils
That persistently leapt from my heart
Seeking to wrap themselves about every extraordinary moment that passed
between us.